I've been having a really hard time lately. I don't know why but somehow I'm feeling so empty. Have you ever felt it? Even when you have everything, a good life, the people you loved dearly. But deep down inside you just feel so fucking empty. The loneliness I have in my heart. I've been enduring it all this time. And at some point, i just can't anymore. I feel like the world is against me. I feel all alone in this world where nobody cared about me except for myself. 

I'm lost. So lost that i couldn't even think properly. I'm losing myself to the darkness. I'm losing control of my life. Sometimes, I just want to give up. Give up on everything. I know its kinda stupid to be doing this. But when you are facing it alone, all you could think of is just let go of everything thats important to you. Its only because you don't want them to get hurt. Yes. I don't want anyone to get hurt while i'm dealing with this problem. I can't let myself hurt the people i love. I can't bare to even make them feel they're not important to me. i need to gain my strength to face the hardness of life. The pain, the disappointment, the worthless tears. 

And here i am feeling to empty and worthless.